Learning to finally let go of my fears and worries

 2022 has unequivocally been one of the most rewarding and toughest years of my life. There were tears from joy, tears from sadness, tears from anxiety, and so much more. People came and went in my life throughout the year.

It was the first year where I truly experienced a universal human experience. It was the experience of heartbreak. It was the experience of losing someone who carried me through all of my hardships; through all of my worries and anxieties; through all of the successes of overcoming tribulations. It was the experience of my first true love. But it was also full of hurt which slowly grew to a lack of trust. Through all of this, I learned that I wasn't ready for it. I took the relationship for granted and hurt the very person whom I wanted to spend forever with. I learned that I had a lot of problems of self-image that I needed to work through because, if I had waited until I fixed those problems, they would still be here. But I didn't.

And when people leave, all you need to do is to learn to love yourself again to let go. For their sake. For your sake. Because, if you really loved them with every fiber of your being, you would want them to be happy. Even if it's not with you. And this is something that I have to work through for 2023. I know that, in my heart, I can do it by putting my faith and my love back into the Lord. He will give me the sign that I need to finally let go of what's hurting and leave it all to Him. He always has a plan.

So, let's bring on 2023, with new ambitions and new goals. I have no doubts that there will be many challenges along the way but, as I'm growing into the faith, I will lean on my saviour, Jesus Christ, to guide me through these trials and tribulations. So, while I work through lingering issues that broke my last relationship, 2023 will cultivate me into a person who I can be proud of. 2023 will transform me from the broken person that I was this year and into the person who strives to achieve greatness in every facet that I do. It is my mission and my goal to document my journey in 2023 in short retrospective blog post snippets, so that I can embrace who I was at the start of the year and compare that with who I will become at the end of the year. To show the world that I can really grow and become the person I promised to become.